Every friendship & relationship is a lesson, a part of our life.
But to me, i take everything as granted.

My first serious relationship, on 2010.
Everything start with wrong people, friend. At that 10 months of relationship i start to know what's love , quarrel , fights and cry. I believe that we can love someone till we can give up anything for him/her. Some will say us for being too stupid as we do this for each other. But we know that how much we love that someone till we can give up our pride. But the love we have for that someone can easily turn to hate. I finally know why jq & jh will do all this to me when broke up. Because of love leads to hate. JQ love me alot in the past. All my blog entry you guys can see. How much we love each other 2 years back.. He have been so protective to me. But i'm that kind of person that the more you control the more i want to run. The day i have make up my mind to leave him was on his 16th birthday. All because i take things for granted. When i left him, he still come to me and hoping we will be back together. But i was using him.. As i have fall for others. But when i know i'm losing the man that hold on for so long for me, i wanting him back but the love he have for me have became hate. Till now, he still hate me as much as the past.

JH, He exposed all my secrets when we broke up. As all the love he have for me have turn to hate too. Others say i put on spells on both of them. But the fact was i take them for granted. Both of them did so much for me yet i took them for granted. When i lose it then i start to cherish.. Ain't too late?

That's why i will say every friendship & relationship is a lesson. It teaches us some much but is up to us to learn or not. As for me, i can see that i didn't learn my lesson so i will take Jh's love & concern for granted.


Will i learn my lesson? I don't know. But i know i always want tjq to come back to me. Because there's so much for me to say to him to let him know.. I willing to use my whole life time to let you remember all the past.. Actually, when you read this whole entire blog entry you will remember how much we love each other in the past.

Friends have been saying me stupid, brainless. I can only say i'm trying to remember every single things and times we had together. Even though i have forget some but i will try to remember everything for you. I will share with you every stories. As long as you are willing to listen i am willing to share with you. Because all our stories is sweet and fun. Though there's quarrels and fight in between but trust me, you will smile when you think back..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWdxaXswf94
(tjq, remember?)